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On Change

“Change is the only constant.”


How true a statement that is, especially in today’s world. Thanks to social media and technology, we are all chasing happiness and the next big thing (whatever that looks like for you). We struggle to find our joy and contentment. With this past year came a lot of disruption in what I like...consistency. A lot of change. External change. Internal change. Good friends moved. Others got married. Still others received job promotions or new jobs. People bought houses. Relationships began and others ended. Favorite co-workers moved on. Then there’s the internal change. The change you can feel all the way down to your bones. The kind that can be incredibly painful, yet worth it and the kind that only those people closest to you can see. You start changing your toxic behaviors after you say enough to the bottomless pit of darkness. A lot of times, we can’t see the internal change within ourselves. Many times this year, I felt left behind, stuck, going nowhere. And it was during those times that God gave words to people to remind me that a lot of good was happening within me. So while there wasn’t much external change, there was a lot of internal change...the kind the grows you and makes you a better person and helps you love others well. For that, I am grateful.

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